sometimes I share my soul
I sometimes wake up in the middle of the night after days of stress or before a stressful day I know is going to happen, such as my moving.. I woke up early this morning and was having an anxiety attack. My mother in law packed away everything so I didn’t know where the pills were. I started pacing the floor a bit worried I wouldn’t calm down. I accidentally woke my Husband up by doing this. He asked me what was going on the dog made a noise and I joked about how he wanted me back in bed.
I couldn’t sleep I ended up having early morning sexy time with him, we cuddled afterwards and I feel back to sleep in his arms, while spooning my dog. For a short period of time I felt complete. I feel empty again and worried to hell. The anxiety is back and I just want to sleep or die.
I want all this moving to be done. Then Disneyland.